How important it is

It is not what I eat (notice according A la carte down stairs)
It is not about the amount of food
It is about noticing the signs the body gives
It is about acting on these signs
It is about a change in mind pattern
It is about being in control
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I grew up in a teaching that told food was a reward-thing
That was a heritage I had to go against
I know I tried as I raced children myself, though acknowledging that was a time without knowing the mighty YHVH

I was a different person, I was not a mentally strong person, and therefore as I write this I do not know in which degree I passed my heritage to the children I brought into world

One cannot approach the Almighty YHVH without YHVH responding
Smiling – in one way or another, always something is happening
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In times I meet the food-reward-pattern. In sadness I recon the nothing I can do or say,

No desire for any warning, no desire for any advice, no desire for my experience, not that I even tried to in this particular topic, but no matter the topic, pattern for mankind is exactly the same. Learning; by doing.

Only if one asks a question, one is about ready for the listen part. Trust me; this stiff neck REALLY knows this.
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Everything has to come from within
Also a desire for a change

A time there will be a kind a fragile wavering in the “what is to be instead of what is already known” from this – to what, is it this way to step, is it right, left, 1 step 2 step, what to do, what to do, consequences in stepping out into new country – and for sure consequences not to conquer new land.

Counsel the Mighty One is the best advice I can come to think
Counsel the Mighty One is the ONLY advice I can come to think
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For me it has been a deep diving into mind to acknowledge what I contained as a person. An understanding of what I came from, what the parents has given me during childhood, accept and understanding of this.

Same time it was a healing of mind.
My mindset was hmmm

A TOTALLY EXTREEMLY OVERWHELMING DISATER OF CONFUSION

I was promised a healing one day, some time ago. Not knowing when, not knowing how. Has in times been bit rough – howling, yelling, crying, screaming, fighting against this.

Today, I can type this
Thanks to YHVH I am now emotionally healed